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Monday, November 9, 2009

2:19PM - Great weekend..

Benoit came over on Friday from Canada 11/6/09.  It was a great surprise.  Truc told me he would drop Benoit off in the morning but instead they surprised me and brought him to my place.  I was very happy.  It'd been 2 weeks since I saw him last.  Truc is a great friend.  On Saturday,  I cooked us breakfast.  Benoit and I went shopping in downtown aftterwards.  Boy does that guy like to try on every jean till he finds the perfect one!  Ryan later joined us for dinner at Dragonfish cafe.  The food was ok.  We came home afterwards and didn't go out dancing at all! That was a surprise.  I fell asleep early and the night went by.  Sunday came, which I hated.  I knew Benoit would leave soon and I would be crushed again.  Things were different.  Benoit reminded me that I was going to ask him something the night before but he forgot to remind me that night..now he was reminding me.  I asked him if he wanted to be my boyfriend.  He said he was too young and he would prefer someone closer to him in Vancouver and hadn't found anyone yet.  He also said another friend confessed his feelings for him also.  My heart was crushed, and I cried inside. I didn't let him know though.  He kept asking me if I was ok and of course I said yes.  What can you say? " No, I"m doing horribly! You just rejected me.  This is the first time I"ve ever confessed my feelings and now I know why I don't do it."  Hehe Well yea, that's how I felt anyway.  I"m trying not to be bitter and jaded.  Maybe I should read my earlier postings reminding my future self not to be bitter or jaded.  It's so hard.  But it's really true, If I could do it all over again? I would get my heart broken again.  I had a great time and it felt good to feel like someone liked you.  Now it's time to get back on the single market and find myself a boyfriend where feelings are mutual.  

My dilemma now is that what am I to do when I see Benoit next?  If he wants me to sleep over, my heart says no, my body yes.  I must trust my heart and say no.  I like you but you don't like me that way.  You only want sex and I'm not going to give it to you...*sigh* now i'm making him sound like a bad guy.  I should have known he didn't like me that way.  I mean all those times I told him I missed him, he never reciprocated the feelings.  Ok Tim! Wisen up!  Must smile, your heart is broken but your mind is not.  I wonder if any of my friends read this.  I just wanna cry but the tears won't come out.  I want to sleep it off and dream a dream where I was a superhero and Benoit would see what he's missing.  I want him to love me but I know that cannot happen...most importantly, I want to get over it so I can focus.  Only time will heal me.  I love you time, come to me time.  Your are both a friend and an ally.  You are always there for everyone and sometimes too much.  <input ... ></input><input ... >

 

Current mood: sad
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Sunday, October 25, 2009

3:43PM - Last week up to today. ...

Wednesday was stressful as it was my Chem 460 midterm.  I'm not sure how I did.  I finished most of the problems but you know how it is...always opposite of how you think you did.  We will see on monday...I skipped school on Friday! I"m such a bad boy I know.  I finally got to see Thamasha my co-worker on Friday.  She was sick still poor girl.  It was nice to see her though because we've not seen each other in a while and I forgot how fun it was to work with her.  I almost fell asleep though at work lol.  She gave me some sudafed and it knocked me almost out. Saturday morning, Gerard and I drove up to Vancouver BC!!! I got to see Benoit and I was so happy.  It's been almost a month since i last saw him.  Truc told me to tell Benoit how I really feel about him that we should be boyfriends but ended up not bringing it up.  I feel it's unfair to Benoit since I don't live up in Vancouver.  Truc assures me it's my insecurity of being rejected.  Is it?  Damn Truc is to intuitive for his own good *sigh*.  It's great to have good friends that will tell you the truth.  :-)  I helped Benoit move into his new apartment and spent most of the day with him.  Though I did have one scare that I misplaced my wallet, it ended up being found in my coat pocket.  Truc, Gerard, Liam, Stephanie and I went to Odyssey while Benoit went to entertain his other friends on Granville Island.  I met up with Benoit later and we spent the night together.  hehe he's a horny guy at 4am.  oops said too much.  :-p Stop reading if you don't wanna know then.  I'm home now about to go have dinner with Ryan my friend from WoW days.  I have quit playing that game as did he.  I miss you Benoit.  I'll tell you one day how I really feel...You were meant for me I know it!  I"m saying this now because I'll prolly be bitter when I'm older and laugh at this post.  I need to remind myself that love really is a great thing and stop being bitter. So older bitter self, get over it! Smile and have hope.  

Love,

non-bitter younger 26yo self.  love ya

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Current mood: cheerful
Current music: You were meant for me-Jewel
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Monday, October 12, 2009

10:34PM - Eternity

It's been over two weeks since I've been to Vancouver.  My heart tells me it's been an Eternity.  I do miss a special someone there(Benoit). Truc came down from Vancouver to Seattle and we hung out on Saturday the 10th with this brother.  The movie we saw was called "Cloudy with a chance of Meatball."  It's a Disney 3-D movie which I liked.   I had a lot of fun.  Benoit went to Nanaimo Island with some friends.  Oh yea it was Canadian Thanksgiving weekend.  Hmm I'm supposed to be at the library right now but instead, am in front of my computer updating my livejournal because I miss you too! I haven't talked to you in a while.  I 've just found a way to do my homework for my Chem 460 class and I need to also read some books on the element Silver.  I have a paper due in a month for my Inorganic chemistry class.  

Yesterday, I worked.  Two co-workers called in sick and I was like what the heck.  I didn't want my boss to go in(she would have had to work the graveyard shift if I said I didn't want to do it. Yes, she's so dedicated! That's why I like her and look up to her.) since she had been just sick also and don't want her to be too overworked.  Although a lot of my co-workers complain she get nit-picky, which I also see sometimes, she's not a bad boss overall.  She's funny and laid back.  Always the most professional and keeps her cool most of the time and sticks up for her co-workers.  When I work with Amy, I'm always next to her office talking to her about everything and we goof off.  I bet she doesn't get much work done when we work together.  
 Sunday went by kind of slow.  Don't all Sundays?  While I was reflecting upon my day, I realized I missed going to church.  Can you believe it?  I know right..I just remember the warmth that I feel when I"m at church.  I feel complete and happy.  I should go this Sunday.  Ok I promise myself I'll go this coming Sunday.  I must.  I like singing in church and listening to the sermon.  


Truc just texted me aww he's so nice.
"Hey was thinking of wat u asked me today about talking to benoit...i feel u should just do it n tell him your honest feelings.  That way u r tru to urself n knows where he stands. I care about u n i feel u deserve to b happy even if rejection might b scary.  Ur a grt persn w/ lots to offer so dont worry!"  

me: "I just feel taht it's too early. He's young and the last thing I want is to scare him.  I will though.  Maybe when I come up next to Vancouver on the 24th."  

Truc:" I support u if u think thats the best. Persnally i think that him being "young n u scaring him" r more reflections on ur wories of him rejecting u if u told him.  "

 
me: "yea you're right.  I'll talk to him in person about it when I come up."

Truc your texting makes my eyes curl!  @.@ spell out words :-p  He's right for sure.  *sigh* friends always see right through me!


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Current mood: contemplative
Current music: You were meant for me -Jewel
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Saturday, September 19, 2009

2:50PM - So many friends..

but why do I feel alone still?  I need to make more friends to hang out with when Luke's at work.   I hang out with my roommate/best friend so much that when he's not available I feel alone.  I was born alone and have been alone most of my life so why should I care?  I dunno but I do.  My place needs a couch preferably leather and some stools.  Craig's List has some good stuff I"ll shop around also.  Brent's says he's furniture shopping maybe I should go with him. 

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Thursday, August 27, 2009

8:07PM - gym

I went to gym yesterday and was a great workout. Had an embarrassing moment where I was doing a leg press and didn't know how to use the machine.  I had to ask someone to help me while I was stuck with the weight on my feet. Thank god for Gabe!! He works at 24hr and is a good friend of ours.  He was there to help. After the work out I came home tried to take a nap and couldn't. Work went by so slowly. I borrowed a couple of books from the library to try and learn french. I"m trying my best. Maybe I could impress Benoit with it. Ever since last weekend with him, I think i'm infatuated. *sigh* aljsdkfjaslkfjasl;jflaksjfsalfjaslk;fjaskljflkas;jfasklflajs;fjaslfjaskljflk;asjfklasklfjaslfljaskljfklaslfaslfljaslfjjla
He lives in Vancouver BC I live in Seattle. I knew my heart would be broken if I got close but I didn't care.  I took a risk and I don't regret it.  It feels good to feel alive.  Maybe he'll return the same feelings?


Today I went to the gym again. Yes, hell froze over.  I never go to the gym more than twice a month xD
Ate teriyaki.  Can I haz special numba ten? Teriyaki/Mongolian Beef special. Yumm so good.  I think my goal to get a six pack would be achieved faster if I ate healthier.  okie time to go to work. I start at 9pm

Current mood: accomplished
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Wednesday, August 26, 2009

8:04AM - A lot of the cute ones are far away...why?

I had a GREAT weekend. On Saturday, Truc texted me to go out with him and some friends. They came from Canada the night before. I did laundry till up to eight. Worst part about doing laundry is match the socks and folding the clothes. Which reminds me, I still need to finish diong that. The dresser I bought a month ago is finally inside my room xD sorry Luke for being such a messy roommate. I'm trying to change my habits.  At about 9pm Luke and I met up with Truc and his boyfriend Peter, Liam, and Benoit( prounounced "Ben-Wah"). Benoit is sooooo cute.  He's French and has that French accent as well.  We dined at Rommai Thai. By the way, that is the BEST BEST BEST Thai restaurant ever.  I would recommend their Pad Se Ew or my personal favorite(not on the menu) Hao Mok Dalay. Well, it wasn't on the menu for a while till we kept ordering it. I loved it instantly.  The seafood one is to die for. I noticed when I peeked in their kitchen that most of the cooks were women.  It was nice to see that since it's always men I see in the kitchen.  After dinner, we walked to Neighbours to get our stamp before midnight. That's right we gotta save ourselves the 3 bucks :-p $3x6=$18 dollars saved. Neveah aka Gerard was there along with Mark in drag. They looked cute.  I wasn't in drag btw.  I think I need to stop doing drag. I gotta find me a husband. 
We left Neighbours to get some drinks at CC Attle's.  If you want strong drinks go there.  I asked Peter what kind of guys Benoit likes a little more about Benoit.  I am very bad at flirting. <--Needs to take lessons or if someone wants to teach me please do. I think that's why I'm single. (when I get drunk I tend to be too blunt and say "Hey you're sexy." which can be a turn off)  I figured if I can act stupid while I'm drunk..can I try to do it sober? I'm sure no one will notice I"m sober.  I didn't want to drink more than 2 drinks since Benoit doesn't drink.  *sigh* I remember when I didn't drink.  Well personally, I don't enjoy drinking strong drinks. I like weak drinks and sweet drinks.  Madison Pub was our next destination.  Benoit, Liam, I, and Truc beat Peter and Luke in pool by Peter's scratch on the eight ball. Nothing like a free win eh?  Peter brought his game back on darts. He killed Me and Benoit.  Truc and Liam were playing those video game things at the bar which eventually drew Luke.  I think the more drinks Peter had, the better his aim.  
Walking to Neighbours, I tried to flirt a little. I asked Benoit if he wanted a piggy back ride...I know right..I flirt weird :-p
I told you I"m horrible at this. I'm going to be reading this and i'll be laughing at myself when I"m older.  We danced all night and I grinded up on Benoit.  I kept telling myself don't get too close to him because he lives so far and you'll be sad when he's gone the next day.  We went upstairs and eventually made out.  I texted Truc that we were upstairs. Luke told me the next day, they were watching us for a while and Truc kept covering his eyes screaming.  Pervs!  :-p So much for trying to stay away from him.
I remember telling Benoit I wasgoing to kidnap him. lol Ok that was a little weird. Iknow but when you like someone you don't think it's weird right?  Ok I"m just weird whatever :-p
We taxied(if that's a word) home, yes I brought him home.  We had a great time yea yea I won't go into details. I'm sure you don;t want to hear it. But I fell in love.....or is it infatuation? I don't know.  I haven't felt that way in a long time. I would say prolly over 6 years.  All I know is, even after a few days, I can't stop thinking about him. He's on a plane now to France or somewhere in between.  I plan to go visit Truc in Vancouver BC in about 2.5 weeks.  Hopefully, I'll get to see Benoit as he should be back by then.  I have this new motivation to make myself I little more attactive physically.  Gotta go to bed. After I wake up in a few hours, I"ll hit the gym before work.  I'm gonna get a SIX PACK!!! and it's not of beer or soda!

Current mood: hopeful
Current music: I Miss You So Much- TLC
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Wednesday, August 5, 2009

2:22AM - It's late..

I'm up thinking about all the things I did today. I woke up at 3am on 8/4 and couldn't sleep. I walked to qfc and did some grocery shopping then came home and cooked. After that, I watched Spirit(which I loved, specially Death) and Get Smart. I still have one more dvd I have watched but I fell asleep after that. Sun woke me up again around 1 pm and I day brought me to browse craig's list for another dresser which I found. I now have two aneboda dressers which i love. Great deal only $50for the one I bought today.  I rented a car and drove to Queen Anne to pick it up. It was weird talking to the owner about it.  I was kinda scared he might be a psycho >.>  He was actually nice  and tried to keep conversation flowing. After I dropped the dresser at home, I drove to Central District to buy some Kalika a new weave. Damn I had to fight off some of the girls. Jk about the fighting part. It was kinda awkward. Usually when I go, there are only girls there which is fine. But when there are guys, I get uncomfortable.  I just walked up and down the aisle of hair products till they were gone. I then got the clerk's help and got some hair. When I left, I avoided the army recruitment location there next to the beauty store.  They always try to get me to come inside.  Hmm I always notice that beauty stores seem to be owned by Koreans. Why? I'm half-korean and I don't know. Maybe I should just identify as Samoan.  Well I turned in my zipcar about a min late and hopefully they didn't charge me a late fee xD.  If they did, I 'll ask to have it waived since it's my first late one and took me a while to file a report for some paint dmg in the beginning.  I got home and cooked dinner burger and beef fajita.  Got an appointment to be tested for HIV. Yay! I tested Negative^^.  That place is very depressing because when you walk in, you can feel the anxiety others are giving off.  And at the same time you're doing it too.  I dunno what my life would be like if I had HIV.  My tester i guess or the guy that drew my blood asked me how my life would change if I had it. I told him of course I wouldn't be as optimistic as I am now.  I used to think that basically my life would be over if I had it. But I see a lot of people going on with thier lives easily who have HIV.  It's also amazing how HIV can affect a person's social status.  People really look down on it.  I hope that in the near future there is a cure for HIV.  
Anywho I did some more shopping after. I went to panache and bought my sister some tank tops and accessories. Hmm let's do a summary of how much I spend so I can feel bad and not spend so much.

Dresser=$50
Central district= 36
Panache=71
2DVDs= 24
Groceries= 34
Total= 200+
Crap, I didn't know I spent so much. :-(  Well I"ll be working 8 days straight so I 'm not going to spend much.  Time to go do my JC daily on Cyenne. 

Current mood: annoyed
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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

11:06PM - -.-

Hmm last post according to this was 187 weeks ago. Hmm what's new in my life? I'm currently working full time at Moneytree going on 3 years now. I love it and also going to school part time. I went through some hard times in my life and I made it!  I"m alive and well.

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Tuesday, June 7, 2005

1:01PM - ADdiction...

I am a World Of Warcraft addict..there I admit it. Does that mean I dont have a problem? Must play...patch download faster now. I command thee! Hi everyone =^o^= sorry been bad keeping up with my LJ. Nothing new just same old me. Gotta go check e-mail ttyl...if anyone needs to reach me i'm at kalika_fuiava@hotmail.com

Tim

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Saturday, February 5, 2005

1:02PM - Beautiful sunny day

Sometimes I doubt the fact that seattle is a good city until it is sunny. The sun glazes over the shimmering lake as I look out wishing to be in it. It's so beautiful. The rain makes everyone in seattle enjoy it's sunny weather. I think that's what makes this city so beautiful because the people cherish the sun insteadof like california where it's hot weather everyday so everyone gets used to it. I love seattle.


Lately school sucks..i did well on my physics midterm but not so well on my physical chem and inorganic chem hw brb phone it's sara...i think she prolly wants me to work for her.

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Sometimes I doubt the fact that seattle is a good city until it is sunny. The sun glazes over the shimmering lake as I look out wishing to be in it. It's so beautiful. The rain makes everyone in seattle enjoy it's sunny weather. I think that's what makes this city so beautiful because the people cherish the sun insteadof like california where it's hot weather everyday so everyone gets used to it. I love seattle.


Lately school sucks..i did well on my physics midterm but not so well on my physical chem and inorganic chem hw brb phone it's sara...i think she prolly wants me to work for her.<answers phone...> ok she wanted me to work for her i said yes. Hard for me to say no. any who where was i..school yea not going so well for me. I think i should study more?Hhehe well i just hope i do well at the end. It's not how u start it's how u finish that counts the most.

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Wednesday, January 19, 2005

9:58PM - school school school?

So lately i've been good friends with Oodegard library here at uw...i wanna go tonight but i'm waiting till kevin calls me so i can pick him up. I might go there after though so i can get some studyin done. Savatei got me started she kept asking me to go study with her so i did. Almost every night this week i went to study there. I have to get some physics homework done tonight so I can start studying for my midterm this fri then i have to start my inorganic chem homework!!! Too much going on at once hehe. I think I can safely say that I am back to my old self when I was a freshman. I could study till my head hurts then that's when I call it quits. Also it keeps me out of trouble. Hmm what's new with me...nothing same old. I have a performance this fri and still haven't gotten a # for it yet. What song should i do? Haha well we'll leave it for last min. Anywho school comes first. OH yea I am gonna play WOW(world of warcraft) till he calles. ttyl

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Tuesday, January 4, 2005

1:11AM - been meaning to write..

So how was New Years?? Mine was spent working 9am-5pm then went to Sean's Party as Kalika to Host it with Lady Princess Lily. It went off well. That was my first time hosting anything. I did it for exp because I'm sure someone's going to ask me someday..(hint hint dlp fashion show05) to host their show LOL... here are some pics from it

http://queerduck.net/NewYears2005/

Anywho they asked me to do a performance and i didn't have a Cd on me so i asked them what they had. They had a jLo song i knew so I was downstairs rehearsing it for 3 min then got it down. LOL talk about last minute. Everyone thought I had performed the song b4 saying they loved my routine...I said haha I winged it like i do most of my performance...BAD DQ<<<------Somehow Lily entered me in the costume contest and I won..I waslike what the heck i can't run I was hostess lol but hey i stillkept the star bucks gift card they gave me cuz lily would not take it back. That girl's crazy. We went out to neighbours afterwards and just hung out there. Lily(DQ) loved the attn that drag queens get..I think we have a new drag queen hehe coming out. Hehe there was some drama between her and a tragic tranny there. I helped them made up and everything was fine. After clubbing i heard that my drag daughter Halle was suckerpunched by the same tranny and now she's on my list ...If i ever see her out she better hold onto her tracks and weave cuz ..let's just say she will be bald when i'm done with her. Yea I"m really mad that she did that to my daughter. Wel the next day(sat) all the asian dqs and trannies(except me) raided neighbours looking for this latina tranny. I only do drag once a week then i'm done till next week hehe...LAZY DQ<<<---- School started and I"m trying to go back..hehe hopefully I can afford it. Anywho I have two classes with Savatei and one with Heing and One with Pei...:-) yay first day is over and i"m exhausted. time for bed

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Tuesday, December 21, 2004

11:40PM - lately..

Ok so yea....i've been a badboi?? I pursued Kevin and I like him alot. Hehe he's so nice and cute. I haven't beenlike this in a long time. My house is spot less an dI"m actually doingmy laundry here at my complex. My room is spotless..hehe damn it's weird. We went to brent's dinner thing and we cuddled the whole night. My friends were looking at us weird LOL hehe. Brent's an interior designer(FAG) so all his presents the wrappings were superflous. I wanted to keep the wrappers afterward. He got me a picture frame how nice. Things are going good. Next quarter i can afford I think. I have 300 saved but my sis will help me out as an xmas gift :-) yay!! THat's the best christmas present ever. I'm so happy. :-D I know already what i'll get for kev . It'sreallynice. hehe no no ring. We already said the L word to each other. hmm i feel like one of this little girls drooling over boys u know the onesin the movie. adjflkdjarljdsljafljdsaflajsflkdsahehe i'm done gotta go check laudry.

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Wednesday, December 8, 2004

2:11AM - repetitive nights...

Every night that I had stay up late, I've been playing one of my old games..Heroes Of might and Magic 3 to fall asleep. It's the same thing over and over except i don't finish...Why am I prone to do that? How can i change it?...


Ok hehe so yesterday(tues) I woke up to Luke's phone call telling me that I won a 25 dollar gift card to TarGay for the money tree raffle!! yay!! Hehhe ok ok so maybe he set it up so that I would win blah blah lol There's a drawing everyday! :-p I really don't go to money tree period. Hahha Luke's one of my best friends that works there. Ok I got the gift card thanked him and came back at 9am and fell asleep. I woke up and went to work till 12am..two hrs ago. Now i'm here sitting in front of my pc and can't wait till i get to go visit Kev tomorrow at work. He works till 3pm then we're gonna hang out till 4:30 I go back to work and get off at 9pm then hang out with him. Yea I like him a lot. he's very cuddly and cute and lajdlfad;fkajlfkajlkfjlkajjslkafjaojsfjjaslkjakfewjaejkfjdsalkjfkldasjfklsjsf;akjga
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Ok time for me to go back and play heroes. ttyl

Current mood: anxious
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Monday, December 6, 2004

2:21AM - boys????!!!

Dear Journal,

Ok so yea i got stood up for my breakfast with Kyle..bastard. hhehe anywho it's alright it's ok you're gonna pump my gas someday. LOL ...yea it was heartbreaking but i got over it after neighbours last night. I met Kevin and he's so adorable, huggable, and did i mention cute? Yea he's so perfect for me but one problem...he has abf :-( :-( :-( He told me he is basically supporting his bf and that his bf is treating him wrong and they wil be breaking up soon. I still feel bad that he likes me and i like him but he has a bf. Sunday today I woke up to his phone call and he told me to come over to his place..we cuddled and made out till I had to go to work ...damn work. I told him to call me at 2am (mon) when he gets off work but he called me like 1/2 hour early and i was cleaning my house like mad..serious 3hrs of cleaning no rest. But yea he called me and there is no missed called on my phone just a v-mail. I"m so sad i was suppose to go pick him up from work. My phone was still on vibrate from when i was at work and i forgot to switch it back to Vibrate&Ring. NOhnova;sjdf;asjflkjaljflkjallk;asjfkasjfk;kal;jfkasjfafadsjflkjalkjfljasljflasjflasjfjjsakfjalsjfjasfas;falsdf;dasfa;sfladsfdjalksfjas;flkasljflas;falsdfkjas;fdj;kadjf;sjakslfj
I think that was me cursing. grrr i'm so sad I'm not hugging him now. I miss him. Is it wrong for me to chase after someone who has a bf already? Even if their relationship might end soon? Help me....


Sadly heartbroken,


Tim

Current mood: sad
Current music: Tamia-Who do you tell?
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Wednesday, December 1, 2004

3:22AM - this test thing...thanks mom finley for the test..

DragZillas
WOW! What a suprise! You're a "DRAG
QUEEN" Girl you got it going on! You look
better As a woman then most women do! You love
to get dressed up and spend 4 hours getting
ready and making sure you're thin and beautiful


What kind of queer are you?
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3:09AM - been meaning to..

write to you journal but seem to get distracted easily. Hmm what's new? I have been chattin with this guy name Kyle and he seems really cool. When we talk on the phone we're chattin forhours. I met him in person the day before yesterdayand I think he's still cute hmm...hehe what else...what's new...um yea that's all LOL ttyl night

Current music: crush by mandy moore
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Sunday, November 21, 2004

10:22PM - Car broken into....

Frida came fastt.....I woke up at like 2:30pm and got called in to work early..went to my car and realized that someone had broken into it. The rear triangle right window is broken now so I taped it up till I can get some money to fix it. So yea nothign was stole...they just messed up my car a bit by throwing my garbage that was in there everywhere but it's ok u can't tell the difference hehe. I think they did it to spite me?? LOL

I dunno why i'm always so calm when bad things happen....grr
Ok so later on in the night I had called all my friends to go out karaoking in china town. That went ok..ON sat i worked at 1:30..after workI came home and Tina was here. She came back from her bf headed back to BC now. She told me to get dressed as Kali and go out. So we got ready and went to neighbours. But first we went to Dick's on Broadway and ate some food...later on in the night I got a stomachache and left homeearly. So i came here and just stayed home and played video games last night. Sunday came too fast...nothing to do.

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Monday, November 15, 2004

1:39AM - so proud....

Tina came here on Fri. I went to pick her up from the greyhound station. She's our tranny friend taht comes from vancouver bc ocassionally and hang outwith us on her way to to visit her BF In chicago. It was fun as usual. That girl cracks me up. We went to neighbours and her fake id worked haha. She's pretty clever. (I am in boy mode..got dragged out by halloween).We saw these group of guys downstairs and she asked me if they were str8. I told her to walk by and I'll let her know if they are(if they stare at her)...turns out they were and they were eyeing TIna hehe. So she started dancing and they were all staring at her thinking she was a girl..until this black girl comes up to the guys and tell them that tina's a guy. LOL It hilarious. I dunno for some reason but whenever we go out in face to the mall like once in awhile it's always the black girls that know we're guys hehe..Maybe they have the same wig??? I dunno but that's why we avoid those girls. I don't mean to offend anyone by what I just said but it's soo true. They always know. hehe The only time we've been called out was when a black girl does it. oh lord hehe Life's fun. You only get one..so enjoy it!! I go to the mall as a girl so I can try on the dresses or buy make up..cuz it looks weird when a guy tries on the dresses LOL....picture that in a str8 world! I think I've only gone clubbing to a str8 club as a girl like 3 times and that was boring. I like it when the guys know I"m not really a girl. LOL so i just go to gay clubs.

Ok yesterday I was called into work early...no surprise. After work at the mall I went over to patrick's(co-worker) and played Diplomacy with 10 other ppl...It was my first time playing and it was really fun but we didn't get to finish our game due to time constraints. But yea I'm so proud that I did not go clubbing. I think that was the first sat I didn't go out since I turned 21. I love going to neighbours and dance the night away. Ok so I'm a club whore..LOL damn I wish Miss Neighbours was after my bday so I could ran and at least had a chance to get in free without paying. The winner right now won by default..she was the only contestant. Grr hehe lucky girl. Ok where was I???dfkdfdkfajkjd oh yea hehe I came home went to bed.

Sun I woke up at 1pm took a shower and went to work. When I got home it was 9ish and spontaneously Nack and I thought of going to Timberline since I hadn't gone there on sun...it is kinda busy. Met Bryan there and Eugene. After we danced the night away I dropped them off at their houses and came home..now im here. I came online to check e-mail and this guy imed me wanted phone sex LOL...I was like nah that's ok. But then I dunno why I just played along with it. Heheh Luke has seen me fake phone sex LOL we get a kick out of it. Oh where has time gone...I can'tgo to sleep I think I'll go waste time on fag.com

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Thursday, November 11, 2004

7:14AM - i think i'm in love???

Ok there's this guy I've been chattin with online he's so sweet and maybe too good to be true. Is he the one for me? Hehhe can't hurt to fantasize. I don't findmany guys that I like. I mean lots are cute but mainly not my type. Heheh If I like this guy he'll break my heart one day but until then I"m going to dream hehe...Boysss Now I remember why I'm gay hehe..

Last night was wed and I went to bed at like 10..way too early so I woke up at 5ish and i'm on here dreaminnnnnnnngggg......life's funny. Sav Teo Gui Luke and I went to red robins at Ngate. I pigged out get my 10 bucks worth..tipped the waitress well and left. Yum yum i forgot that I love their burgers. I'm sorry mom finley I wanted to come to your show but I fell asleep the fries got me. :-( I usually go wed too hehe

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